Full Moon Wo Sagashite: Themes of Life, Death, and Love (2024)

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Full Moon wo Sagashite, or “Searching for the full Moon,” is an anime brimming with symbolism, music, and emotions. Inspired by the manga created by Arina Tanemura in 2002, the story ofFull Moon wo Sagashiteon the surface appears to be a girly story of an adolescent girl who dreams to become a pop-singer. However, the story digs much deeper than what is first shown on the surface and opens topics of struggle, what it means to live, and what it means to love. Despite the pretty colours and cute appearing characters, in many waysFull Moon wo Sagashite is an anime that allows the viewers to dig into challenging topics such as sickness, life, death, loss, and love. Ultimately, through a loss, struggle, and tragedy, the characters find what it means to live and to love. Ultimately, the anime leaves the audience pondering what it means to live, love, and sparks deep reflection and introspection into oneself.

Themes of Death and Life

“Before I knew it, someone was always getting hurt because of me. I hated myself…I was such a weakling…I’m not afraid to die. I’m afraid of living. So afraid.” —Full Moon wo Sagashite

In the very first episode, the audience is introduced to death when the main character, Mitsuki Koyama, is introduced. Mitsuki is an innocent 12-year old orphan girl who dreams to become a singer. However, she is held back by throat cancer which prohibits her from singing loudly. Furthermore, her grandmother, whom she lives with, forbids music and insists that Mitsuki forgets about singing. To complicate matters more, Mitsuki is visited by twoShinigami,or “angels of death,” who warn her that she has only one year to live. Despite this, Mitsuki insists that she is not afraid of dying, but is afraid of not getting the chance to sing. In fact, she is ready to give up her life, because she can not imagine a life without singing. Seeing her passion for singing and music, Takuto, a half-Shinigamiwith cat ears and tail, agrees to help Mitsuki fulfil her singing dream until her time on earth is up. Meroko, Takuto’s Shinigami partner, reluctantly agrees to help Takuto, because Mitsuki can not have any ties to the world before she dies, and singing is clearly one of her ties. From the start, the plot seems morbid and already full of death. Yet the Shinigami characters, depicted as having adorable features and human emotions, contrast against the morbid plot. Mitsuki is the only human that can see the Shinigami and it is explained that she can see these “angels of death” because she is “not living” and is searching for life beyond what she already has. Other people around her see Takuto and Meroko as a cat and bunny stuffed animals.At this point, Mitsuki is only holding onto life for the sake of music and singing. Takuto uses his powers to transform Mitsuki into a healthy 16 year old who becomes Full Moon, a blooming new pop singer. Will singing asFull Moongive Mitsuki life? Will it save her fate of dying in a year?

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While able to sing as Full Moon, Mitsuki is full of hope, determination, and life. While becoming a singer, Mitsuki faces challenges such as a nasty rival, over-obsessive fans, trying to hide her true self, nasty gossips, and experiences the pressures of becoming a popular figure. However, along the way she also learns to make friends, be honest, and inspires fans both young and old. However, her true goal is not to become famous. She dreams to sing in order to reach her childhood sweetheart Eichi, a dear friend who inspired her to sing and loved her before she was adopted by her grandmother. Every song she sings, every breath she breathes, is in hope of seeing Eichi once more and expressing her true feelings to him. At the orphanage, Eichi dreamed of becoming an astronomer and taught Mitsuki to love the stars and moon as well as inspiring her to fulfill her singing dream. Mitsuki was suddenly separated from him when he got adopted by a family in America. Since then, her life seems to beforEichi. Takuto notices this and is irritated; first by feelings of jealousy and second by the question of why can’t Mitsuki sing for herself rather than for Eichi.

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42 episodes later, after hard work and perseverance,Full Moon gains popularity and success, but Mitsuki still doesn’t hear from her beloved Eichi. Winning a competitive singing competition as Full Moon, Mitsuki finally flies to America for the very first time to find Eichi–only to find out that he died tragically in a car accident shortly after he arrived in America. The loss and tragedy hits Mitsuki so hard that she no longer has the desire to sing or to live. Mitsuki becomes increasingly more ill and lacks motivation to live: she stops singing, talking, eating, and artistically is drawn with clouded eyes. Suddenly, the once lively, determined, and hopeful Mitsuki becomes clouded by her loss and grief. Her lack of motivation stops her from transforming into Full Moon.She spends more time in the hospital because of her weakened state. At this point, Mitsuki becomes easy bait for Izumi, a sadisticShinigami,who is a rival to Meroko and Takuto. He is the ultimate symbol of death. Izumi lacks the ability for true love, because when he was alive, he never knew true love. He is partners with a ghost-like Shinigami named Jonathan, who speaks in a monotone voice and is incredibly flat and emotionless. Their goal is to drag others into their unceasing misery.

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Izumi visits Mitsuki to persuade her to commit suicide. Izumi convinces Mitsuki that her parents and Eichi are waiting for her and that she is not doing anything wrong by wanting to go to them. He grabs her by the hand while she is lying in the hospital bed and brings her to the top of the hospital building. At this point, Mitsuki is ready to give up life. Although Mitsuki is initially saved by her grandmother, who catches her from falling off the ledge of the building, Mitsuki’s spirit is saved by love and by hearing the story of another character who faced the same feelings and regretted not living—Takuto. Takuto, while getting to know Mitsuki and helping her fulfil her dream as a singer, gets flashbacks of his life while he was a human. He was a music lover and musician who used to sing in the bandRoute L, a band that Mitsuki’s father sang in as well. In many ways Takuto was like Mitsuki. He was full of life and spirit until he too developed a tumour in his throat, which ruined his voice and embarrassed him while he sang in a public concert. Frustrated, humiliated, and giving up all hope, he tragically attempted suicide. The punishment for souls who commit or attempt suicide in this anime is to become aShinigamiin the afterlife. Shinigami are subject to a life of eternal emptiness and regret and because they once ended their own life prematurely, they are fated to take human souls. Although a rather morbid mythology and thought, the idea of the eternal torture from regret and termination of life is interestingly translated in the sufferings a Shinigami must face. Takuto regrets the way he ended his life, and he will do anything to stop Mitsuki from ending hers. His role switches from being a Shinigamiwho is supposed to take Mitsuki’s life to the force that restores life and returns meaning and purpose to Mitsuki’s life.Shinigami are not supposed to remember their human memories and punishment for remembering their past is to become a ghost. However, Takuto, determined to give Mitsuki a better life, uses his memories to convince Mitsuki that she is too valuable to destroy her life. Life is no longer about loving music or loving just one person, life suddenly becomes about loving yourself too.

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The pun of “L.I.V.E” as in singing live and to live is used. Takuto explains to Mitsuki that singing is life and that loss in life should not mean life is over. In this moment, Mitsuki is reminded of all those who helped her to become Full Moon and the love of the people around her: her friends, her grandmother who saved her, her mother and father who are watching her from above, her doctor, her singing director, Takuto, Meroko and even Eichi who passed on. Suddenly life is shifted from small lenses of just fulfilling a dream to become living loved.

“You are alive right? Then you will continue to love. That’s what it means to live.” —Meroko

Development and Growth of Love: Sacrifice

“Why?I’vecompletelyforgottenhowtolove
meetingswillcomesomedaywiththebeginningofparting
Somehow,Ihavedecideduponthatidea

Youtiedmylooseshoelacesofmydirtysneakers
Yourshysmilesuddenlyshoneinthesunlight

It’snotthatIloveforwantoflove

Yougavemethecouragetolovestraight-forward”TranslatedLyrics ofLove Chronicle

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Full Moon wo Sagashiteis full of romance and love. As a Shojomagna, one of the main goals of the plot is to communicate a romantic narrative. However, love is developed in many ways and it is not the typical romance that one would expect. Although not a coming of age anime, in many ways Mitsuki and other characters in this anime grow and mature in loving. They learn what true love is: sacrifice, hard work, and dedication. As the anime unfolds, the audiences see a shift from superficial love themes to the development of true love.

Mitsuki, as a child did not receive proper love from her family as her mom died in childbirth and her father died shortly after in an accident. So, when she is treated kindly by a young boy at the orphanage, Mitsuki clings to him. This young boy is Eichi– a boy who treated Mitsuki as a younger sister. He believed in her and saw her potential to sing at such a young age. Because of this, Mitsuki clung onto him and became very close to him. However, because of her immaturity, she had difficulty expressing her true feelings and when she heard he was moving to America, she withdrew and hid, denying the separation. Years later, she regretted this and poured her heart into songs as Full Moon to reach him. Mitsuki is so “in love” with him, she lives in hope to see him again. This, of course is over passionate and unreasonable, and Mitsuki realizes that it isn’t healthy to cling on to people in obsessive way and that love can still exist even after death. Mitsuki recognizes that Eichi will always be in her heart and he would want the best for her. This is shown in the lyrics to her songs she sings after she finds of his death. For example, she sings the songSmile, Smileexpressing her love, but this time acknowledging that Eichi is watching her from above:

“Smile, smile
watchmealways,watchmeforeverwhenever
Smile, smile
wanttobelieve,wanttofeelitforever
Smile, smile
beingabletounderstandhappymorningsandsadnights
Iwon’tforgettosmile.” Translated Lyrics ofSmile, Smile

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Another character whose ability to love is transformed in the anime is Mitsuki’s grandmother. A hardened, tough, and highly strict woman, Mitsuki’s grandmother is so hurt that she has forgotten to love. Mitsuki’s grandmother, Fuzuki, believes love is to be over protective. Fuzuki, although loving her daughter, disapproved her daughter’s choice for a husband, causing her own daughter to run away from her. Furthermore, after her own daughter died, she is overly cautious about Mitsuki’s health, forbidding her to do many activities. There is no denying that Fuzuki loves her daughter and granddaughter, but she is unable to allow her love for them to show or develop. In the anime, she is depicted as rigid, strict, harsh, and difficult to connect to. Love is not reaching Fuzuki at all and she is unable to show love to her granddaughter, Mitsuki. However, when Fuzuki sees her granddaughter about to fall off the ledge of the hospital, she expresses that she loves Mitsuki and does not want to see her die. When Fuzuki saves Mitsuki, she shows sacrifice and love that up until this point in the plot she was unable to express. In fact, Fuzuki destroyed Mitsuki’s dreams by forbidding her to sing, or think of music, and never allowing her to do anything without strict surveillance. Fuzuki realizes her mistake: to love one must allow others to make their own choices, decisions and mistakes. Free will must be respected. Because Fuzuki didn’t respect her daughters choice of a partner, she ran from her. Because she did not respect Mitsuki’d desire to sing, Mistuki started to sing behind her back. Fuzuki realizes she must respect her granddaughter’s thoughts, ideas, and dreams and is softened. She is able to support and freely express her love later in the anime. She desires to hear Mitsuki sing and swears to give Mitsuki the best life.

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Perhaps the biggest symbols of love are Meroko and Takuto, the two Shinigami who sacrificed everything to make sure Mitsuki lives. One of the biggest character transformations is that of Meroko. At first, Meroko is shown as a comical character who is often silly, childish, jealous, obsessive, over-dramatic and demanding. She seeks love and dotes on Takuto throughout the anime, hoping to have her feelings heard and returned. However, to her dismay, Takuto does not reciprocate the feelings Meroko has for him. Initially, Meroko was paired to work with Izumi, but Izumi, an ill-mannered and emotionless person, dissolved their team and broke Meroko’s heart. Since then, Meroko has been seeking someone to love her, thinking love is kisses, hugs, and empty words.

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Meroko, although crushes on Takuto, realizes that Takuto isn’t interested in her in that way. However, Meroko learns there is a different kind of love–one of sacrifice, caring, and forgiving. Meroko and Takuto, while trying to help Mitsuki, get into fights, quarrel over small things, and sometimes have difficulty having empathy for each other. However, as the journey continues, the two learn to forgive each other, and sacrifice for each other. When Izumi comes to tempt and tease Meroko, she stands strong against him and tells him that she no longer wants his type of superficial love. Meroko explains that witnessing the sacrifices Takuto made to help Mistuki live and fulfill her dream taught her what love is really about: sacrifice. Izumi is left confused and baffled, but realizes that Meroko is no longer weak enough to be his toy. Meroko works hard to create a special gift for Takuto, she works hard to prevent him from becoming a ghost, and helps Takuto save Mitsuki. When Takuto uses his memories to help Mitsuki, Meroko is saddened because she knows his fate will be to turn into a ghost. Saddened and determined to save him, she goes through the torture of retrieving the flower of forgetfulness, a flower that can prevent him from turning into a ghost, for him. When Takuto’s power as aShinigami isweakened and he has difficulty transforming Mitsuki intoFull Moon, Meroko cuts off her hair and gives to Takuto in order to restore his power. In the end, it is Meroko who protects both Mitsuki and Takuto and she is rewarded by becoming an angel for learning to truly love.

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Perhaps the ultimate love that is demonstrated is the sacrifice that Takuto Kira goes through to restore hope, life, and music in Mitsuki. At the start of the anime, Takuto plays a protector figure that guides Mitsuki, protects her as Full Moon, and continuously pushes her to fulfill her dream. However, Takuto is a challenging tsundere personality that appears cold and rough and tends to be sarcastic and mean to hide his true feelings. Tsundere is a Japanese term that is used to define a character who develops from being very cold and dry to loving and friendly over time. Being with Mitsuki brings out Takuto’s turbulent, stubborn side, but also brings out his tender and loving side. Takuto sacrifices for Mitsuki many times to the point, Mitsuki asks himwhy do you do this for me? Takuto, unable to express his true feelings, covers it by saying because Mitsuki is an immature girl who keeps getting into trouble. In reality, Mitsuki unlocked Takuto’s past and mistakes and working with her not only restored love in his heart, but also allowed him to love himself once more. After Takuto uses his memories of his past to restore confidence and life in Mitsuki, he knows he will end up becoming a ghost because he defiled the rules and roles of a Shiniagmi. Mitsuki seeing this, is saddened and is determined to prevent Takuto from becoming a ghost. Without Takuto, Mitsuki would never sing, or have a chance to live. Takuto restored life in Mitsuki and Mitsuki, along with Meroko, is determined to restore life in Takuto. The only way to restore Takuto and prevent him from becoming a ghost is to erase all his memories. This would mean he would forget his mistakes, his old life, Mitsuki, and Meroko, but would give him a fresh new chance. At first, Takuto refuses, saying just seeing Mitsuki live and sing is enough for him. However, Mitsuki refuses saying Full Moon only exists because both of them want to live. She argues it is not enough that her life and spirit is restored and claims she wants him by her side always. In this moment, Takuto is touched by her love, and takes the flower of forgetfulness. Tears of sadness and joy fall down on Mitsuki’s face as she knows Takuto will be saved, but will no longer remember who she is after her final performance. Before Mitsuki’s final performance as Full Moon is over, Takuto begins to forget who he is and he is taken up to the underworld where he meets Mystere (a character like God). Mystere, seeing Takuto’s sacrifice and willpower to save Mitsuki, gives Takuto a second chance on Earth and is restored as a human once more.

From Death to Life: New Future

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The ending leaves a bitter sweet sting in the hearts of the audience. Mitsuki takes the surgery and it is successful in removing the cancer without destroying her vocal chords. She lives past her 13th birthday, because Takuto and Meroko changed her fate. Meroko becomes an angel and Takuto, although no longer remembering who Mitsuki is, is able to redeem himself and live again. Meroko, Takuto, and Mitsuki are no longer together as they once were and Full Moon is no longer needed. Ultimately Takuto and Mitsuki gave each other life. Mitsuki through her passion, love, and terminal illness allows Takuto to recall his past mistakes and retrieves his ability to love again and ultimately through Mitsuki’s love he is given the chance to live again. Similarly, Takuto through his love, inspiration, and sacrifice of his own fate and memories, gives Mitsuki the chance to sing and restore her willpower to live. Mistuki is no longer able to see Shiniagmi because she has finally started to live. Mitsuki, heart-broken and missing her Shiniagmi friends, is visited by angel Meroko wishing her luck and sees Takuto, who is a human without memories of his past, but ready to make a new future. Both Mitsuki and Takuto are ready to begin a new future–what this future will be is left for the audience to ponder and imagine. But once more, the song New Future, which is the opening of Mitsuki’s journey with Takuto and Meroko and as Full Moon is played:

“Justonethingdoesn’tchange
ThatdreamIpainted
HowdidIappearasIamnow
Inmyyoungeyesbackthen
Hey,lookupatit,it’ssuchavastnightsky
Sothatsoon,sothatyouunderstand
Youwillshineatyourbestsoonsohurry
LookfortheFULLMOON

Let’ssingasong!
TogetherforeverEverythingIcandoforyourightnow
Daybyday
YourdestinyuntilnowFromtomorrow,clutchyourhopestoyourchest
Let’ssingasong!
TogetherforeverIfI’mwithyouIcanovercomeanyhardship
Moreandmore
MoreandmoreandmoreIwanttobecloserPleasestayrighthere
manythanksforyou!

Wonderouschancemeetings
Aslongastheykeephappening
Wehaveevermorepreciousthings
Allthosedaysfullofchancemischief
NowIcanlaughandlovethem
That’sright,Ialwaysyearnedforthewidestage
NowI’mnolongeralone
Everyoneisfullofsmiles
BecausethisiswhereIam

Let’ssingasong
Tonight,ratherthanthespotlight,it’smethatwillshinenow
Daybyday
Thosepassionatelooksandcheersshineuponmystreamingsweat
Let’ssingasong
TonightIwanttobelievethereareneverendingburningthoughts
Moreandmore
MoreandmoreandmoreIwanttoscreamthissong,thisdreamwill
neverend

Let’ssingasong!
Repeatandrepeat
Let’ssingasong!
Repeatandrepeat

Thisisthesongforyou”

Indeed, this song is for the audiences to remember what life is all about: love, sacrifice, dreams, and music.

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